“Cause it’s a bitter sweet symphony this life…”

our little family

Whenever I think of times equally joyful and painful, I can’t help but be reminded of this song. You know…the one from the late 90′s by The Verve featuring Coldplay. Yeah, for some odd reason I sing this one single sentence in that overwhelmed head of mine. Then I do what everyone else does when they don’t know the lyrics, I hum the tune. But that one phrase “bittersweet”, which happens to be an oxymoron has resinated with me. No matter your race, sex, age, social status or religion. No matter your walk in life, every single person experiences highs and lows. And our little family of three is no exception. This blog will be fairly honest perspective on the reality of life. The bitterThe sweet. The stark contrast of the two. The complexity of not having one without the other. This is the story of our journey.

hello world

Ohhh hello there, and welcome! I totally got carried away. I forgot this isn’t my secret diary with the rinky dinky lock I once had in my pre-teen years. It’s 1:44 in the morning, and I’m taking advantage of this time to myself. My 14 month old daughter is the sweetest baby ever. I know it’s a biased opinion, but surely I am her mommy and biggest fan. She is also a true night owl and really struggles with bedtime. Although I can’t blame her, because hubby and I are the same. On average it takes 4 books, 1 bottle, 15 minutes of fussing, 5 minutes of cuddling, 10 minutes of tossing and turning, and 5 minutes of singing before she finally gives in. Boy, I am one exhausted mommy. And even though it happens pretty much each and every night, I still can’t get used to it. Regardless, I am here typing away on my mac, sitting at my dining room table next to the love of my life. We try to make the best of our quiet time. Literally. When you live in a studio with a baby, even the squeak from the refrigerator creates challenges. Especially, when all you want to do is relax, watch a movie,  laugh and enjoy some time together. It’s just the usual tippy toe-”shhh lower your voice”-”remember not to flush”-type of night. One day (soon), we hope to party it up after baby is asleep…haha!

This is officially my very first post. I’m quite nervous putting my life out there for the world to read. Yes, I have a twitter (although I haven’t used it in a good year). I also do have an active intagram and facebook account. I’m not one of those “update-your-status-every-three-hours” kind of person. I would consider myself a casual user. In general, I can be fairly private. I was that unpopular, shy, quiet one in high school. I had the girl-next-door looks and personality. I was friendly, but never belonged to a cliche. I had that sweet smile (well…minus the two years I wore braces) and was described as the “good-girl”. I was the poster child for all introverts. While I was always able to carry a good conversation, I was reserved and composed with my language and gestures. I’m a people pleaser by nature. I try to avoid confrontations… at.all.cost.possible. Thus why I cringe when merging lanes. It’s safe to say, defensive driving isn’t my forte. I’m working on that. And on many other things, by the way.

The point I’m trying to make is quite simple actually. This blog is a huge milestone for me. A step towards voicing my thoughts, opinions and beliefs. It’s both nerve wreaking and liberating to have this opportunity. As a 29 year old grown woman, wife and mother, I finally have the courage to express myself. It’s been a long time coming!

I plan on sharing a glimpse into my personal day-to-day moments.

it's us

My attempts to be the perfect wife and domestic diva (umm…can you say, unrealistic?). The experience of pure bliss and less than glamorous challenges of a 1st time (stay-at-home) mommy. I’ll open up about the child rearing philosophy my husband and I both share. My wonderful memories of being a daughter and also the pressures of being a PK (aka – pastor’s kid or perfect kid). My relationship and responsibility to my three younger dear sisters. The enjoyment of being an aunt, and the awesomeness of my little one having cousins! I’ll write about the stress of a bad economy, family differences and the endless other struggles of an imperfect world. The priority in saying our prayers and counting our blessings. The daily commitment to laugh out loud until it hurts. Our appreciation for the simple pleasures of life: sunflowers; a good friend, the first snowfall, a perfect candid photograph, our daughter’s giggle, a cozy blanket on a rainy day; closing our eyes to the warmth of the sun.

I’d love to include lifestyle posts about my desires for a fashionable (yet mommy friendly) wardrobe, the mission for a well decorated vintage-modern/eclectic nest, our passion for all things creative/crafty, and the obsession we have with good food. In addition, I plan to blog about spirituality and inspirational messages of peace, hope and love. There’s probably so much more I’m forgetting to mention, but our comfy bed is calling my name right now.

Until next time,

R